A ton of Rocks...

I wish my blog wasnt blocked at work it would be easier for me to blog more often. It has been just about a month since i have blogged...wow!

Current mood: Sad but feeling Greatful of all my Blessings.
Song for today: Doin Just fine-Boyz II Men
Book: Smart Girls do Dumbbells-Trying to get my workout on eventually :)
Quote: "Family, It never goes out of style" Lyfe Jennings

So today is the 2nd day i wake up feeling the blues...Not really sure why...I ate a WHOLE Hershey's Almond Chocolate bare i have NEVER in my life done that, seriously i am not much of a chocolate person and when i do feel like eating some its just a bite...

Yesterday I convinced myself that i was a shopaholic, I even googled how to overcome it...But today I talked to my Bestie, and she convienced me that I am not, she said "you spend because you have it, otherwise you wouldnt shop" lol sooo true! But I am trying not to spend what i have...Its got to the point where if I feel sad I shop even if its just a shirt!

Today a "good friend" (so i thought) told me they could careless if they ever spoke to me again, and that hit me like a ton of rocks, I mean it was painful to here it from that friend...It was one of the most hurtful things anyone has ever told me in my life. If it would have come from just anyone then fine whatever, but it came from someone i was very very close to...I guess i needed to hear that, the truth, reality, and I am now at peace with myself to keep it moving...

I am sooo homesick!

Lots of Love and Peace! ZEAL!

Days after..

So its been a couple of weeks since i have blogged and a lot has happened since then...

Current mood: Down-but wanting to cheer up...
Song for today: Better in time
Book-Eclipse-Book 3 of the twilight saga, I just finished New Moon, it was sooo sad well the first part was and i was goind through the same stuff i was reading...tear...

So after 5 days of going through some heart ache i guess my heart is slowly but surely trying to mend it self...I know it takes time...and there is nothing anyone can say to make me feel any better, i guess time is my only way out of this pain...it all happened so fast...i couldnt even defend myself i just let it be...my stomach still aches badly anytime we cross paths i feel like it puts me back to day one...i know i will get though this...i havent been able to sleep at all its so annoying i wake up entirely to much during the night...tears still come...i havent talked much about it so i guess this is my way to vent...neways thats enough venting i will get through it...Love and Peace

The Piece that don't fit...

Current mood: Full-Just had lunch with my sweet friend...
Song for the day: Three Times a Lady By: Lionell Richie-Dedicated to me by a special someone...
Book for now-Twilight-So i am finally reading the book, many have told me to read it since i am soo into the movie! The book is awesome so far so much more details! I plan to read all 4 of them...New moon comes out Nov 20th! Can't wait!

My days are still long I cant seem to sleep all through the night I wake up a lot! I miss my bed at home it is soo comfi!
Today I made some cold brew iced tea...I have been wanting some so bad and i finally got it today...well lets just say it didnt taste as great as i wanted it to i think i maybe needed to brew it a bit longer...one day i will be good with all this kitchen stuff i swear! LOL I think i am going to start lying to people when they ask me if i can cook...before i would say no with no 2nd thoughts about it now i kind of have to look down in shame when they ask and i say no...I guess people just assume i should know how to cook why? i am not sure...I do want to learn one day maybe...Val always tells me not to worry about it that i will learn one day lol she is always so positve with me...
THOUGHT FOR TODAY-"Am I the puzzle piece that don't fit?" Here is this perfect fitted puzzle and I feel like that one piece that doesnt seem to fit any where, no matter how you move it to try to make it fit, it just isnt going to happen...

Do you ever have dreams and dont remember them? I hate when that happens i never seem to remember my dreams....Errrr!

Last movie watched-Five Fingers, Excellent movie! The entire movie is in one spot but its a damn good movie! It has such a wierd twist at the end...i Love it! Check it out!

Love and Peace!

Heller...

So its been a while since I have posted...I just got back from vacation about a week ago! My vacation was great...Time seemed to fly by so fast...I learned a few lessons while home also...those will be for other blogs... So now I am back to the usual...still trying to get used to the time zone here although when I am home I never seem to get used to time there...My house is just beautiful...thanks to my Mama! I wanted to spend lots of time there...all the kids are so grown up...Neways my time home was cool...

Current mood-chill
Song for today: Just to be close to you-The Commodores...(A lil old school for tha soul) :)

So my job blocked my blog site which totally sux by the way! I am on it now thru some other website...but now I wont be able to blog as much! Well i can do it at night in my room. Lately the last thing i want to do after work is get on the computer...so we shall see...Neways just wanted to say hello, I will be on later to blog more! Lots of Love and Peace!

Cuatro dias!!!!

Current mood: Chillen, I have a head ache and neck ache...

Song for the day: Any Selena song...yes i went way back i am jammin!

My day: Today has been good...Romeo called me today although we email almost daily it has probably been a year since we spoke on the phone...So it was good to talk to him...
I don't have much work to do but any little work that i do have is annoying since my mind is blank all i can think about is being home... ;) I am planning a BBQ for the 4Th, excited about that! I actually enjoy being a host...i don't like cleaning though lol...

I am starting to read the book of Acts...Interesting....I am also reading Muscle & Fitness HERS ok ok i admit i only bought it because Kim K is on the cover (my obsession by the way) lol i love her! That HOT BIATCH!!!

Fav food item today: Toast with butter i LOVE IT! Bread makes the booty spread...hated it! lol

So what is your Favorite snack?

Love, Peace, & Happiness! ZEAL!

Good Morning!

I finally got some sleep last night!!!!! I woke up feeling like "me". It feels great haven't felt this way in some time! Do you think lack of sleep could have effected me that much? Everyone kept telling me how tired i looked lol...I see a lil glow in me today! ;)

Above a pic of Miss Favor, She is such a doll...She gets such a kick out of me calling her "dolly"...She is such a cutie pie...Val tells me the funniest stories about her she has such a personality of her own....My lil Favor, you gotta love her ;) Little Miss Sunshine!

Simplicity...

5 Days to go then I will be on my way home I just can't wait!!!

Current mood:Groggy, just woke up from a nap...haven't been sleeping much at night...

Song for today: "Hello" By: Beyonce

Thoughts: I need a massage! I feel like my body needs to be stretched in all angles!
I am a simple person, I like simple things, and living simple...I don't like for things to get complicated...I haven't been myself for a few days now, I am trying to find my happiness again...I enjoy smiling and talking to different people...I like being "cool" yah know...
I am so Blessed in life, God has given me so much, and I am not just talking materialistic...He has given me much understanding...From now on I will not justify my relationship with Him to anyone...because I know it is soo soo special...ahhhh... :) He is sooo good to me! Simplicity...

My mom decorated my living room it looks amazing! She is Awesome!!! (see the pic above :) )


Love, Peace, & Happiness! ;) Pumbita!