Time Flies

Wow I can't believe it has been 2 weeks since I Last posted, time is flying which is GREAT I only got 5 more weeks before I am home and I soooooooooooooo can't wait! I really miss my house and all my family and friends! I can't wait to play with the girls they make my day!
Everything has been good...Last night I was thinking how God makes us his first, we are always searching for this feeling of fulfilment from humans when God is ALWAYS there...I have been distant, well away from my spiritual life...Now I have the urge, I cry out to Him...He is so good to me in every way! I started reading the book of Proverbs I am only on ch 3...I just kept feeling the need to read it and I think I am starting to realize why...
So everything is back to normal with me and Val, and I am soo glad we went through a little rough patch and it was totally awkward but I must say once we get past things like that it only makes our friendship stronger! I realize more and more how the very base of our friendship is loyalty! Our friendship is really like no other and i know all BFF's feel that way but really ours is sooo like no other :)
Well I got distracted by....neways i lost my train thought so we will talk laterz!!!!

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Will the hurt go away? It is still awkward no matter how much I try to shake it off...there is still too much pain...I want to get over this...I want it to go back to normal...Will it? Them words go through my mind over and over...do you really think I am that awful? Could I continue to share my deepest darkest secrets with you, or should I always keep silence, in order to keep "Peace"
Hmmm I don't know...

Happy Mothers Day

Well today is Mothers day(my time) So Happy Mothers Day! I am writing this post with tears just falling...I just got off the phone with my mom i waited till Midnight then called her :) I am soo thankful for her we have come such a long way together and our relationship has really grown...I love you mom and thanks for making the best of this crazy life...
I have been a bit in the dooms grandmother has been running a fever these past couple of days...For those of you that know me you know My grandmother is EVERYTHING to me and i cant see life without her...I know people come and go in this life YES i understand that but that's my Grandma so neways i get so sad when i know she isn't feeling well...I try not to worry and I pray for her everyday....My Grandma she is soo sweet i just adore her...I pray and hope she lives many many more years...
I had just heard my friends mother passed away so i called her to check on her, it was sad for me, i mean you never really know what to say i guess...I am praying for her that her spirits are lifted some...
As i am writing this blog i am reading what i write and i don't even know if i am making sense to be honest i am just upset, I try to stay upbeat and happy but i don't know i am just sad today...I can't seem to stop thinking of something i read...it really hurt but sometimes we have to let go and keep going...I wrote 2 or 3 previous blogs then went back and deleted them...I just didn't want to give in...I feel life is too short for bullshit but what do you do when you are really hurt???
Well to all the Moms be thankful that you are a mommy for it is a HUGE blessing, And to all those who have a mother be thankful to them, tell them you love them and remember always "Mother-there is only one"