Only God can Judge me...

"If you can learn to control your own reactions, then you can change your routines, and you can change your life" The Mastery of Love...

Current mood: hurt, resentful, hurt-1/2 of me the other half=so excited to be home soon!

Song for today: WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT~TI!!!!

Thoughts for today:
1. My sweet friend Miguelito emailed me today his email made my day after being crushed by a previous email!
2. My eyes hurt and burn so bad today...
3. I cant wait to be home I need a damn drank!!!!!


So this morning I received an email from a friend of mine...(very bad way to start my morning)
The email was harsh... "Christian people" always claim to "judge" out of love! I remember at one time not even wanting to categorize myself as a "Christian" I didn't want to be like the people around me...I am imperfect and I will never be perfect...I have made a lot of mistakes in life, but I know who I am I know the heart I have, and I won't let anyone tell me different! People are so stuck in religion and forget to show "Gods Love" I am glad He is Merciful and His Love for me is UNCONDITIONAL!

Happy Weekend to all! Live life to the fullest its too short for all the bullshit!

PEACE, LOVE, and HAPPINESS!!!!

9 DAYS!!!!!!

LMAO!!!!!!!! Val the Bunny, girl i can't even explain that in words LMFAO!!!!!! Man I need to buy one for the states!!!! LMAO!!!!!

Today's thoughts-My friend Tammie left today :( I am a little sad she was my buddy out here we always were together, she stayed the night with me last night, so we just hung out and did the "girl thing" awww I sure am going to miss her...

Dude we had like the worse sang storm the night before last i should have taken pics I have been here 5 years just about and that was the worse i have ever seen really! I woke up and there was sand all over!!! Then I came to my office and i literally could not see my key boards they were loaded with sand YUK!!!!

So it has been a few days since i called home, fam, val...I was just going through some things...I usually don't like talking to anyone if I am not feeling like myself. I guess i am too obvious so i stay to myself until i am "me again" :) Both Val and my mom called me like "why the heck have you not called" lol ...

Song of the day: Violet Hills By: Cold Play-I Love this song!!!!! I think i like how the voice sounds far away! I know I am weird like that! Bang your head back and forth and rock with me! It almost makes me want to do a slow mode robot...lol...i bet Val would do it!

Yumm moment-I ate some Funyuns today they are good! Reminds me of eating chips with pickles....mmmmmmm i LOVe pickles!

I have 9 days for R&R i can't wait!!!!!!!! Well I will be home in 11 days but out of this place in 9 :)

Current mood-Chill, feel like i need to stretch!

I am really perfecting the skill of polishing my finger nails...YES!!!

Val you are AWESOME!!!!

Peace and Love, Happiness!!!! Pumba!

The Mastery of Love...

So today has been going, lots going on...I woke up in a really bad mood today but i am OK now...

Current mood-Moody but thankful....

Current book I am reading-The Mastery of Love "Happiness can only come from inside of you and is the result of your love. When you are aware that no one else can make you happy, and that happiness is the result of your love, this becomes the greatest mastery of the Toltecs: the Mastery of Love- from the book....

This book is sooooo amazing I have read it all in one day 210 pgs...i would recommend this book to EVERYBODY...It is currently my FAV!

Song for today-Better in time-Leona Lewis

Thoughts-I cant wait to go get a massage in about an hour i sooo need it....a friend of mine really opened up to me today, weird you never know what people are going through...

Favorite thing people love to tell me-"Hey can i call you back" and they NEVER call back! ughhh
annoying!

My friend tamm is transferring to another base she leaves thursday :( I am going to miss her...

13 days till i am home i soooo cant wait!

Peace and Love!

TODAY

SO I HAVE EXACTLY 2 WEEKS TILL R&R OMG I SOO CAN'T WAIT...I TALK TO MY MOTHER EVERY DAY AND SHE TELLS ME ALL ABOUT FIXING MY HOUSE AWW SO I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT!

CURRENTLY JAMMIN TO: VICENTE FERNANDEZ...THIS MUSIC REALLY REMINDS ME OF CHILLEN WITH MY FAMILY...

CURRENT MOOD: IN LOVE-OUT OF THE BLUE LOL...

I AM THANKFUL FOR: MY LIFE, CHILDREN, FRUIT PUNCH, EMAIL, NAIL POLISH :)

PEACE AND LOVE!

Different thoughts, feelings, moments...

My neck is tense, hands are sweaty, the inside of my stomach swirls, 1000 thoughts are racing through my mind, and every time the phone rings my heart drops, but all I can do, well the best thing to do is count on God, He knows what is best for me...

FAMILY, we are supposed to be one, unity is what makes us, these are my thoughts and how I feel about family...Love, Laughter, Memories, I know there is not perfection...I understand we all live our own lives but when all the chaos is over you look around and family is still there...

Awkward moment-So this soldier walks in my office today talking about The Lord...he says "your from Texas huh"...then he says "Texas is going down hill they are just totally out of the church belt, but the Lord wants it like that" I am like OK weird...So he goes on to talk about The Lord...then I randomly ask "do you drink" lol...he says "yes I Like to get drunk occasionally" I was like hmmm OK...Then I ask "Did The Lord tell you to come into my office" lol and he says "no just stopping by"....OK totally weird....

Talking to Val-I talked to Val today on the phone, I love talking to her, she makes my day most days, she can also piss me off other times lol but most days she cheers me up :) She can be sooo funny and so are the girls! Emily is counting down the days to come stay the night with me we are both so excited, Favor is supposed to come also so I hope she don't chicken out, Penelope will also join us so that night should be fun! So neways Val is awesome she just adores me most times, as I adore her...today we talked about "my maybe future wedding" she thinks about these things for me lol...I miss her all the time, I Love our crazy sense of humor that not many can appreciate...

Words I can appreciate-Today I was helping my friend order a gift for some friends ( a couple, newly weds) of ours and he tells me to put on thier gift card "Always keep each other laughing" and I just loved that. I just thought that was sweet and so true....

Movie reviews: Obsessed-OMG that white chic was crazy and Beyonce was a bad Biatch on this movie I love it! He's just not that into you-Chic flick totally Loved it, so real, cute and true!!!!

Music: I listened to my brothers music today I love his songs and his voice...I miss my puddin...

Longest Goodbye By:India Arie...Love this song reminds me of Nae...

If all goes well my vacation is in 20 days I soo can't wait!!!!

My mom has almost finished my room OMG It looks so good I am in love with it! Thanks Mom You totally Rock!!!!!!!!!!!! Above is a new pic of my room "Unique designs by Angelic" I wish my mom would really pursue designing she is sooo GREAT at it...

Ok my sweet pies gotta go! Lots of Blessings, Love, Happiness, and Peace!!!

I am Thankful for...

I am thankful to have a relationship with God to know who He is...So many people are so lost without Him... I am so grateful for the Love I feel for people...I am thankful for being me...I am thankful for my family, & friends, my job...I am grateful for my new and Beautiful Home...I am thankful for my Mothers creative mind...I am thankful for my Happiness...I am thankful for my Emmi...I am thankful for children....laughter, hugs, kisses...I am thankful for my BFF...I am thankful for being American...those are just a few things I am so truly grateful for...

An old Prayer Journal...

Yesterday I was cleaning my room here in Iraq and I came across an old journal of mine that was given to me by someone who was like a Father to me...I have to so it was so emotional and touching for me to read through it...It was a journal where you would jot down a prayer and once it was answered you wrote the answer...It made me feel so Blessed it was a sense of reality for me I can't really explain it...Things I prayed for in 2003, & 2004 and I have seen it all come to past...forgetting that it was once a prayer of mine until I looked through this journal...WOW...God is sooo Amazing! So I decided I wanted to start writing my prayers down again it was just to neat to see what has come to pass...