chill mode

Today has been a very quite day...i think i can count the words i have spoken today lol...i dont know i guess i am chillen...i watched Seven punds for the 5th time today i love that movie... :) I just cant understand why it got bad reviews its an awesome movie! I kept wondering why it was titled "Seven Pounds" so i finally googled it and got the answer....Neways you should check it out sometimes its a good movie...Its the weekend, another monday in Iraq...everyday is monday out here....its a very sandy day...these sand storms are crazy...they used to not bother me so much but not its bad its hard for me to breath through it...hmmm....oh yea April first i am starting a Spring Fitness challenge...its goign to last 2 months its kindda like the biggest looser in iraq lol so i am looking foward to that...i will keep you guys updated well try to lol...ok all you in the states enjoy your weekend loosers!!! lol what i would do for a sleep in day! Lots of love!!!! PEACE OUT!!!!

Long Lost Thoughts of mine...

So its been forever since i have blogged...sorry guys...i guess time fly's, things happen etc... Every thing is cool right now...I have a lot on my mind lately...my dad is in the hospital and i am having so many mixed emotions about it...i dont know...he has never been there for me but i still feel so much love for him...I have to give God the credit for that....so neways he got beat up i am nto too sure of what really happen and why anyone would beat him...he got hit on the head pretty bad i hear but he is going to be ok so i feel somewhat ok...although i have never been close to him nor do i know him to well i dont know ....nevermind...neways ummm i havent been talking to Nae much i dont know i feel unappreciated so i am just like whatever "it is what it it" life goes on...so now for a positive talk i go on vacation in 3 months i just cant wait! I am going to vegas a couple of days with David and who knows who else is going i cant wait... i misss my house so much i miss my girls my family! my grama :) i cant wait!!!!! i feel so tense right now i cant relax...i am trying...oh yea i got a phone in my room now i got to chat with my buddy miguelito for a couple days so that was way cool he is my guy bestfriend back home he is a beautiful person :) Well i can go on and on about nothing really so i leave you with this thought for today..."What would Jesus do"?

I Love him i Love him not...

I tell you PMS is torture...It brings back all these old feelings...ughh...i just don't know is it "PMS" or is it how i really feel??? I started to think about someone in my past today...yea not good i know! And it doesnt help when we have the conversations we have...I am the "good friend" who listens to all his women issues...yea go figure on that one...the "EX" listening to this lol...No matter where i stand in my love life (and right now i am happy and in love)...he still seems to get me somehow, can it still be "love" it's a scary thought to me...I have really tried to block it out because i was really hurt, not intentionally but this indivdual could never love me the way i love him, never not even come close to it...so that is the worse type of hurt...neways so many thoughts ramble my head right now, i dont even want to think about it or feel this way...back to reality right....

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i know i havent blogged in a couple of days...truth be told i am sooo homesick!!!! i miss my house!!! i want to be there, hang out with everyone....sigh....well 4 1/2 months to go....

chips....

ok so i need to lay off chips for a while...before it was fries, cheese, etc etc but now its chips...actuallyi just ate a small bag of doritos right before bloggin...so i said i was gonna lay off but they are addicting...so now that i have screwed up i will start tomorrow and try to go a week with out them i will keep you posted on how well i do...so i wouldnt say i am dieting just trying to eat a little different but make one small change at a time...my first change was breakfast and that is working out pretty good, now only drink water which that is easy for me...so now the chip thing its hard...next will be hard candy gummies omg....lol
it seems like if i tell myself no i want it even more...its bad believe me such a mind battle...and you see i have to do it little by little by little otherwise if i take it all at once i will go crazy and vinge for everything....to be continued...

More than a mans love....

Hope everyone had a great Valentine's day...You know i have to thank my grama for the Love i have for Valentines day...When i was growing up she would dress us all up in cute red stuff, then fix us sweet baskets with all kinds of sweets and love...My Grandmother is the BEST!!! I listened to soooo many women complain about how they hate Valentines day because some man ruined it or they are just not happy in love...But come on Love isnt only about a significant other...think about it Love is God, Your Family, Your Friends...and to be honest Valentines for me is expressing all my love to them and feeling all the love they have for me... Although i do have to share that this year I did have a little addition to my V-day...Yes!!!! I had the most Fabulous day, night with a "sweet friend of mine" and for the first time i shared that special day with a man...and LOVED it to the fullest...He could not have made it any better so yes that i will cherish forever...but remember V-day isnt only about a "mans love" Gracias Mami!
I got to talk to Emmi and Favor today sooo precious both of them...Emmi sounded so GROWN...she was like "So nina what did you get for Valentines"? i mean we were having a grown up conversation awwww my baby is growing...while we talked Miss Favor was in the back ground yelling "i wanna talk to nina" over and over lol...so i asked Emmi to speak to her, and she too wanted to share alllll the chocolate she got for Valentines then we talked about the puppy she wants and how she cant wait to play hide and seek with it...lol i LOVE them girls!!!!! :)
So today i had a very long talk with a friend of mine...she asked me suck a deep question....WOW so her question was "How do you find happiness if thats not what you grew up with" actually my answer amazed me after thinking about it...although i grew up so loved and with happiness i told her i has to be honest and say i found ture happines, joy ,love when I accepted Jesus Christ into my life ...and that is so true...so then i went on to tell her all about it...Wow I miss that fire! We had a really good conversation...I found my self reminissing on the nights i stayed at the alter for hours praying and weeping for my family...and now i see the fruits of the seed planted...Its such a beautiful feeling....God is sooo good to us! I get lost in the thought of his MERCY for us...
Peace and Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My sunshine....

"I miss you Nina" them words just make me melt...so sweet, so soft spoken...Emmi is my God-daughter, my princess, my lady bug, my baby girl, my sunshine, my sweetheart, i Just ADORE her!!!!! I LOVE the pic above...I remember when Emmi was a new born i would just hold her and could stare at her for ever...I never knew i could love such a lil thing soo much...